*Note: this is NOT a diary*

eh chu elli khallene send in this post.. don't ask cause I don't know myself, listening to music n thinking this is much better than just checking the other posts in this forum (what i did is checked them new posts n all then came back here)
Anyhow.. lets be nice:

Welcome pplz, audience, readers, checkers whatever.. *if ur wanting to read* welcome to my own TOPIC UTOPIA of daily notez on life..
you can always give comments or opinions if you have any, if you don't like reading then what are you doing here?
So here we go..

07-27-2007
too many 7 and 0 in todays date :p well nothing special to write here its the first start of my utopia, one thought struck me just today.. *maybe it's been on my mind for some time i dunno* anyhow it's
why WE ppl think that we help or want to help while all we do is just making it worse for others?

like at my new job *that i like lots* we try to help alot.. but then im thinking this creates differences between people in this world, doesnt it? yes you cant save the world but what about all the millions out there? just give it a thought and you'll see that it's true..
you can NEVER be fair enough.. you can deal with what you can do today but there's always some unfairness in it, towards someone if not towards yourself.. dunno just a thought.. maybe i would go around think some more about it.. or maybe i'd just forget it tomorrow....





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crossed my mind while is was out today... so detailed and colorful life is and how chosy and unsatisfied human being is...
nothing much to elaborate on this thought.. since im chosy myself, i dont like everything.. still isnt it typical how we always blame life? for like EVERYTHING? (no luck, not happy, sad, depressed, stressful, rushing life, dissapointmentsm why the hell is it raining??!) while on the other hand it's us choosing? weird huh?
*pondering more about this*





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first do like to thank u for deciding to share ur thoughts daily ,, generous u know . now on that first thing u wrote about this word being unfair or how hard it is to amke it a better place if u ment that since by trying u just creat a difference bitween the some ur helping and other s of the same situation that ur not ... well about that .. intresting idea , now got me thinking i never do help actually although irrelevant. just noticed it isnt a priority of mine to help others anyway , i hope i dont hurt no one :P,, now about the subject well helping by offering a hand for each and every one in need isnt an efficient way u know and perhaps ur work is that kind of help , usually to help its better to offer a method or perhaps promote an idea that can lead to more people helping more others or less people cozing tragidies to others , that simple or more comlicated but do thing its a better way but anyhow , u would still have people needing help maybe less than before , but there will be some . so there Girl jumps in with her good job that she loves and does her best .
injustice would still be there but less often occuring.. now tht was juyst some philossophy of the empty kind perhaps but that was me .
 and about weather and nagging people even when its there choice ,, well i say its never about the weather .. just something to take out on perhaps , still wierd things we r since the weather does repeat itself each year , and still many think it annoys them for a reason each day through the year ,, can be funny

eh plain thx to u for reading :p u know me bla bla alot even nonsense many times..

anyways..im at work and i just fixed the laptop that hasnt been working well.. and now using it quickly before i go back to work ;)

so today:
and we all know its 070729
i have no mood to think of anything specific today.. lots thoughts been on my mind but nothing of which i would write here..
anyhow since this needs a fill up and im dedicating a thought each day im thinking about the discussion we had just 3 houres ago about traditions and girls vs. boys.. yes old subject bla bla if ur too outgoing u loose ur oriental touch and if ur too shy and following the oriental style (like traditions n such) then ur so backwards/ignorant and traditional..
we had a hugeeeeeeeeeeeeee discussion about why at age of 10 arabic families (most of them and common even in joke talks) call the boy of 10 years old a MAN.. while the girl they dont call her woman until she is married!  (yea or something like that)
alright now we know no society is perfect, each place got its pro and cons and since arabs belong to the universal societies so their traditions as well as other countries/nationalities/races are not perfect.. but still... a thought struck my mind.. isnt this way just an indirect/direct way of manipulation a sexist society (since this word also came to use earlier today in a chat with a dear friend).. this is just the way to make differences and to exxagerate the role of the man while eliminate or minimize the role of woman... huff nasty isnt it!





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why are you sad? be happy iraq won the asian cup!  :=

well since i wont be able to send in a thought from work (our net isnt working very well those days) so im doing it now before rushing to the bus..
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so todays thought.. im very happy been shouting n celebrating all afternoon IRAQ WONNNNN the asian cup! 31 years is more than enough to create heroes.. so happy for this win, although i was planning to watch the yearly nordic breakdance battle 2007 down town after i finished watching the game..so here's what i did *of which todays thought struck to my mind* i finished watching the game, was soooooooo happy for the win, took the bus downtown and went to meet some friends n sis to watch the breakdancers compete for the battle of being nordic number one group.. well it took me 1 hour of watching before and had lots fun when i suddenly got a call from a friend saying that iraqies r dancing and celebrating in this other place and music and its sooo much fun.. so come celebrate the win!
yea without thinking i picked up my stuff, took with me the bunch of friends and sis and went to the other place to celebrate iraqs win n dance and sing with the crowds.. while going there a thought struck my mind.. how did i balance or think of the amount of "fun" being more or less here at the breakdance battle or there at the celebration ground? why did i decide that quickly? is there something other than me liking football? well YES OF COURSE U DUMBHEAD!! *referring to myself* because football is about nation solidarity and celebrating with others means nationality confirmation and thus enriching identity with this "unseen, inivisible, very strange thing" called nationality! and creating suddenly boundaries between "us" and "them" others..
we iraqies, and them saudis... we iraqies celebrate our win while them swedish watch the breakdancers!
we won (while actually its the players that played that earned their own win!).. yea our team.. see our, us, we.. hehehe
so funny huh! and im not even born there, seen that place two weeks only.. so where did all this come from? really amazing!
yea so all of a sudden im a dedicated iraqi crazily happy for the win shouting till loosing my voice, repeating all the funny songs and sentences that confirm nationality and city belonging, describing for others how happy i am and saying mabrook to ppl i know and ppl coming with a smile to me! hmm
thought worth pondering about for a while... but for now i need to runnnnnnn to catch the bus!  :=





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yea so
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August is coming so fast, i dont understand this magic about time.. when u want it to pass quickly by you would feel each second!! and when you want it to go slowly you don't notice the time till it's suddenly over very quickly...
so now its August tomorrow! gee i can't even believe it.. me thinking that its many times much much better not to think of time like to let it pass by without caring for it, just care for what u have to do (like deadlines and such) but then nothing else matters.. its important not to forget that with time we get older.. i dunno i dont like it really but nothing to do about it..
anyhow no BIG thoughts for today, i wake up very late and had to run to work.. so didnt really think of anything more than time.. *since time is also the biggest problem we have at work aswell...*
yea so i think its enough for me to write about it for today..
till tomorrow.. nothing to ponder about this time :)





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alright so im typing now and being very careful not to ruin my manicure that i just fixed.. and i havent been writing anything for about two days or so..not because i was boycotting my thoughts but because i didnt really have clear thoughts in mind to write about plus the worktimes never fitting to find time for net n such..

anyhow so back to my lovely utopia and todays bunch of thoughts
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last time i was blabbing about time n such things and im not very happy with it cause its really going very fast and im not even noticing..
well now im here resisting sleep although i need to wake up early.. not having anything else to do.. i was out downtown today, actually alone *unusual* but because i wasnt in mood for religion lectures from some ppl that would follow << the available ones only.. and then i go out and i meet some1 in the bus out of nothing giving me religion lectures.. hehehe
isnt this funny? i run away from this and i find it right infront of me.. maybe next time i should run away from something i really want to have it right infront of me << *doubtful*
eh so todays thought is not about running away or anything its about the different minds we have and yet basic principles we all feel so bound to *not all but mostly* and then if we really get to ground with it we are not even similar with how we understand it..
today i hear lots of words about "going outta road of religion" etc etc.. yea well and i start thinking seriously now, this road that im being told about and that i myself created for me to follow.. isnt it how i myself understood the whole thing *yes with help of books i read and such* but then its a selfmade choice! then its supposed to be true, we cant help ppl bla bla about everything n wanting things their way but at the same time, why do i feel this weird thought of being alone attacked of following this road? now the attacking is more in "reccomendations and advices" stuff which i call attacking cause im not in mood to listen, but then how come i be attacked for something i chose myself not going against principles of majority and not offending minorities and trying to be in the middle of things but at the same time not contradicting them principles inside of me?
now isnt free choice what everyone seek for? so why when we have it we attack others? i do understand that its natural human to do so because we can point on others but not on ourselves, but then how come we never give it a second thought?
*goes around pondering about this for a while... gee*





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couldnt send in any post yesterday as the thing i was thinking of mostly was that dove of which the cat was chasing..
n human morals about such things..

how do u act? if ur VERY tired, sleepy and just need to get home to rest, and in mid of ur walking way home u see an bird (now a dove) with some injury on the wing and a black cat chasing it?

now logically u would help.. but for how long? with the knowledge that the dove will not be able to later protect itself when ur help is gone, and the cat wont go away unless chasing and finishing the chase...

I kept the cat away for 30 min i was waiting the dove to move away from that place and watched it walk slowly away but that 30 min would be a 5min run for the cat, that if there isnt any other cat in the second street waiting for the poor dove..

well i fooled my inner I that 30 min was enough and that the cat wont find it and that the dove will be able to hide somewhere so i could go finally home and sleep..

and guess what happens? i go around thinking of this dove all day!!!!
i guess i didnt help much..

yea so that was yesterdays thought that im still thinking of today which is a bit sad....



but also rather another thought crossed my mind today:
and its the classic butter/toast thingie..
why the hell when ur hungry and wanna eat ur toast with butter and marmelade on it u see it fall and it ALWAYS falls on the butter side!

whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy  ?:(

not worth thinking of... but it got me irritated





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2ikhteh relax and leave nature by it self :P. and about the jam thing i wonder as well ..